caffiene and ecclesiastes.
my fuel is caffeine. almost-afternoon rises with a sip of that bitter sweet flavour invading my mouth, ah the bliss.
shots above taken at Artisan Roast at TTDI while i was back in MY. met up with a close college friend. managed to catch up and sugar rushed over chitchats of investments and setting up some CDS account.
so far, all my friends would know, that working down under has been unfulfilling. the pay may be good, seeing how i’m earning in SGD but what’s the point? money is money, it really is not able to do much. it simply helps obtain stuff that is momentarily valuable, and all things lose significance with time and age.
been reading the book of Ecclesiastes. i marvel at the author, the son of a king, with all the money and resources to education and literature would resort to feeling/writing these words that follow in chapter 1:
“Meaningless! Meaningless!”
says the Teacher.
“Utterly meaningless!
Everything is meaningless.”
3 What do people gain from all their labors
at which they toil under the sun?
4 Generations come and generations go,
but the earth remains forever.
5 The sun rises and the sun sets,
and hurries back to where it rises.
6 The wind blows to the south
and turns to the north;
round and round it goes,
ever returning on its course.
7 All streams flow into the sea,
yet the sea is never full.
To the place the streams come from,
there they return again.
8 All things are wearisome,
more than one can say.
The eye never has enough of seeing,
nor the ear its fill of hearing.
9 What has been will be again,
what has been done will be done again;
there is nothing new under the sun.
10 Is there anything of which one can say,
“Look! This is something new”?
It was here already, long ago;
it was here before our time.
11 No one remembers the former generations,
and even those yet to come
will not be remembered
by those who follow them.
the honesty and raw words of some thousand years ago, i am at a haze of what follows after. this life, and after. standing face to face with these tracks, powerful airstream felt as the train comes to a halt; standing face to face with God himself one day, where He will bring every deed into judgment, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil.
and for now, i’m still alive, waiting.. waiting..
we’ll learn to set the self-timer.
do i look happy? r u looking at me, smiling? well stop, its not worth second guessing. for i am slowly drifting.. no longer filled with viability, just simply doing.
maybe i dont want to let you know how i fret each day i drag myself to have my face beam off the sunshine, walk along the path to a moving train that takes me across the island each weekday to sit and stare at this screen for 10hours. mondays, tuesssday, weeeednesday…
thursday, fri — it’s been ages since i’ve logged into an online chat system, my msn’s probably been hacked, last skype session was probably last year, mid feb from my temp room in krasnystaw.i’m so distant now. no updates, no posts. just resetting my days to digits, counting down the minutes to saturday 0000hrs.. each day passes, answering calls after calls.i’m tired of talking, i’m losing myself in this heap of mindless verbal exchange.
but then You remind me of love overflowng, mountains to climb and hills to roll down from, You give me him and he gives me answers to why the sky is blue, how a straw works, guitar solos to be filled with my raspy voice.
maybe i am happy, here. with You and him. i’m not so-alone after all.
my new toy.
after more than half a year of being lens-less, i’ve decided to go interchangeable. for months, scenic strolls at the park went uncaptured.. either that or i’m stuck with images loaded with noise and blurriness. the fixed focus lens and small sensor cameras attached to my phone and tab could only bring me so far. was waiting for the right time, right amount of cash in the bank to purchase my new toy.
can you spot it? it’s the Olympus PEN E-P3! so far, i’m happy with this mirrorless baby. love the old-school body, fits perfectly in my hands, not too big not too small. and so much i could do with it too! tried some bokeh last night, the bf helped to snip me some shapes. be prepared to witness some amateurish attempts. bear in mind, these be my first ever series of shots ever, so i’d say to myself: not bad yo!
haha, ok, enough with this out-of-focus shit. do find below some more conventional and simple test runs with the E-P3 :D
and here’s a final picture.. of me! taken by my old baby with my new baby. yes, bf is old, he’s gonna be in his mid-twenties this year! TIME, Y U GO SO FAST?
ah! now i can capture shadows, depth, details, bokeh.. so many things! i know i’m gonna have fun with my new baby ;D and old one too, yeah, i shouldn’t leave him out of the picture (haha! no pun intended!). well, till the next post, i shall be snapping away (:
not so cut off;
familiar smiles, and many gags, a bungee cord of elastic strands. we’re still tight, even though we’ve been long out of sight. yes, i miss my girls. and yes, i’m happy we got to catch up. ‘twas a good saturday night. ;)
p.s. this post be long overdue.
quick feb update.
marveled at a green witch on stage. roller-bladed on inline skates along the east coast. watched Chronicle on the big screen. these were just some of my feb weekend goings-on. i’m turning 23 tomorrow, and i’ve bought my bus tickets to spend the final weekend of feb with friends and family. i can’t wait!
i think we’re making Fudge Brownies tonight. yums (:
